From the book I'm reading now, 

The Seeds of Love - Growing Mindful Relationships by Jerry Braza 

Practice

Find a quiet space and bracket a period of time during which you can reflect on the following questions.

• What positive seeds brought you to this place in time? What specific seeds were watered that demonstrated to you that you were and are loved? 
• What seeds have challenged you in your life and contributed to your pain and suffering? Look deeply at the seeds of anger, violence and fear, for example, without blame or judgement of yourself or others. 
• Look deeply at the seeds of love. What qualities were watered that have established you as a loving person today? 
• Look deeply at the seed of fear. What experiences and qualities were watered that established this seed in your consciousness today? 

Someone told me once, time flies the minute you hit 21. I laughed it off, but damn, it is true.

It's sometimes hard to believe that I'm turning 25 this year. Really, are you kidding me? I spent the first 6 years of my childhood running around in playgrounds and wreaking havoc in my parents' lives. The next 10 years were made up of countless hours in school learning things I no longer remember, and subjects that are not at all applicable to me now. From the age of 17 to 23, I finally took steps to develop myself, to explore areas of interest, stepping out of my comfort zone to attempt things I never thought I would. 

Since I finally graduated from university 2 years ago, there were some moments I later learnt the term as "quarter-life crisis". They come similar to panic attacks, times when questions keep popping in my head. 

- What am I doing with my life?

- Do I like my job? Am I happy with my job?

- Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? 

- What if something happens? Some sort of crisis that will make me lose everything? 

- What will I lose.. What do I actually own? 

- Do I have enough money to make it in life? Will I earn enough money for a good life ahead? 

- How do I compare with my peers? Am I better off, or worse?

I am still having these moments and to be honest, I have a love/hate relationship with them. 

They make me feel terribly useless, and lost. But yet, they keep me in check, constantly spurring to become better. To let it be a motivation, or a discouragement - it is completely in my hands (and head). 

It's been ages since I last wrote something in English (since most of the times I type in short-handed Greek to most people e.g. Fuji IX / CR / AR / NAD / OH / HA POIG) I may be really bad in my grammar and so too very proficient in Singlish but oh well. I am hereby giving myself a pat on the back for starting to do this, something I have been wanting to do, to share bits of my life and the little bit of knowledge or skills I have, and the random whatnots. 

Thank you to my beloved Mr Fu for giving me the courage to kickstart this. 

A tiny step forward, to fulfil my dreams. Whatever it/they may be.